Been away for awhile, but not ever really gone...the Dream of one day not having any physical pain may seem far fetched and like that of something thing hat may not ever happen. Well in the past three weeks I have had to continue to "Dream Big" and "Hope" for some long awaited relief. September 6th, I entered the hospital room at about 5:15 am in the morning for a scheduled surgery. Not really knowing the outcome, I went in with the belief that things would some how be different for me. The unknown always brig about fear. So as I was preparing my mind for my surgery. It was very apparent in the preparation room that I was experiencing heighten anxiety and increased pain as my blood pressure was off the charts.....The doctors and the nurses were at odds on what to do and told me if " we don't get your pressure down and stable, we will not be able to perform your surgery today. It's just not safe. I had to give it to God and Trust him...Because